There is also a girl in my life who first impressed me.
It happens at my age 10 when I am studying in 5th STD. She was studying with me from L.K.G. to 5th STD. From L.K.G to 1st STD he studied with me in same section. After wards he went to another section, from 2nd to 4th. After three years he join with me in the same section. That is the first time I talk to her after three years, I can’t for get that. She sat at the side of my desk. Sometimes we do group studied, I also try to tell her I like to have friendship with her, but I dint tell. Sometimes I talk with her in class hours one day miss saw us talking and he separates us and changed my desk.
Afterwards it is very rare to talk with her I will try to talk and ask her doubts in subject but I will not ask, because I fear (payam). I fell happy whenever I talk with her, that time I thought I want a girl friend like her. But from the day till now I have no girl friend. She is also staying near to my home. Some time she pass through our house road and I cant control me I will see until he turn the road, but she will not even look at me and smile, I distress. That movement I feel very happy and also like to have friendship with her. It has gone at least 10 years, I talk with her. I have thought so many times why I am craving for her. My feelings are wrong? I don’t know.
ada pavi ..10 years le ni sight adichiya ? too much machi .
ReplyDeleteneways .. having gf is not as important as having friends. enth aponnu illai na enoonu ..simple logic da
jagan is right
ReplyDeletebetter to not have a relationship and end it and have that pain...
:(
Jagan - 10 years illai just 3 yearsa than machi. yeppa than, i have tht feel. yes world la narraiya girls irukanka, age iruku sight adipom. just fun da.
ReplyDeletemonu - ithink every person have that feel.:)
ReplyDeleteKanna Jeevan - I have been falling in luv atleast 2 girls every year and still luv a girl whom I loved 13 yrs back!! Confusion-a iruka :))
ReplyDeleteIthu ellam kathal-la sahajampa!! Dont worry abt love - kadhalavathu kathrikavuthu :)
I guess this happens to almost everyone at varying levels.!
ReplyDeleteLife goes on....like Kamal sings in Vasool Raja ( Oru Doctor ponnu No sonnah...Nurse ponnah Love pannu ).
But I do understand your feelings. Take it easy. Maybe you deserve someone better.!
Hi Jeevan
ReplyDeleteCame to yur blog through Narayana's blog. Very nice blogs- Never feel low on your feelings. Never think that you dont have friend's, look around every little thing in your life will bring you happiness, every people you meet will make you feel happy. Blogging is one world where you can vent your feelings, emotions, opinions etc........
You will always have a friend in me.
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"to the world you might be one persion, but to one person (s) you just might be the world".................
Take care
Swaps
Nanba,
ReplyDeleteellam irukaradhu dhaan. but having a relationship during mid-late twenties is painful enough:)
take it easy. dont resist yr emotions too much. but dont give too much importance to it either...
this too shall pass :)
Ivengehlam nambahveh nambahdeh jeevan - ehlam nalla kadalai podhuvangeh ;p
ReplyDeleteManasukketha ponnu kedaikka vaazhthukkal!:-)
ReplyDeleteDear Jeevan,
ReplyDeleteI came to your blog through Prabhu Karthik's blog. Hey buddy, I am with u in what u go through. We all go through crushes, love and affection for others. This is not a bad thing at all. There is a deeper reason why we feel that way about some one. It is mystical universal secret, the force underlying this universe makes us feel that way. The reason u feel special towards a person has deeper roots of energy and frequency matching. We do not feel that way towards everyone.
Loving in silence can be interesting, It is infact the most beautiful way to love. At the same time if that Love is supposed to be with you, it will be, if not something better comes up.
So keep loving, never stop loving, but do not get obsessed with love. Enjoy it, it is in the air, in the nature, in the wind, in the water, in the moon, in the cloud, in the sun and the moon and in the people.
True love can transcend all barriers. I might sound way too abstract and crazy, but it is fact.
With regards to your ailment, It is people like you that make many more people in the world, more stronger, more positive and a reason to live. So keep living life to the fulest possible extent. KAL HO NA HO way.
Hope, Faith and Love are the three things that will keep moving us.
I do not know if you have watched the movie Shashank Redemption, if you not, then watch it, Karthik has my DVD, MAy be he can drop it to you one of these days. In that there is a beautiful line:
"Hope is a good thing, perhaps the best ever thing. Good things never die."
I will meet you when I am in Chennai for sure.
Take care and you can always count on me Buddy,
Love
Suman
20 years-la yellam relation-la maatikittu mulikkaveendam pa. summa sight-na njoiii
ReplyDeleteArjuna - at least 2 girls every yeara!! Your r very lucky. I dint write about love, is only friendship.
ReplyDeleteBala – Thanks, U too have that feel.
Venkitu Sir – Yes, u r right every one meet like this in there life. Thanks a lot.
Anonymous – Thanks for u r friendship, your words feel me very happy dear.
ReplyDeletePrabu Karthik – I agree with your words, ithuvum kadanthu pogum.
Grey Vampier – Thanks welcome to my world.
ReplyDeleteVisithra – Thanks for your advice friend. Welcome
Vinesh – Thanks for continue comment from you.
Suman – Your words sent me to a new world.
ReplyDeleteYour r right, with out love we cant live in this world. I love my Parents, the trees, ocean, brids and the rose.
I also like to see the movies you have said, but I do know Hindi.
My home doors are opened for you when ever u come to chennai come. :)
Gayathri - thanks for your advice pa, i wrote about only friendship not relations. :) welcome.
Thanks prasanna.
ReplyDeletefriendship ikku yedhukku ivalo hesitation. Just go and talk to her. Ivalo yochikathinga.
ReplyDeleteIndha maadhiri Vegulithanamaana post padichi romba naatkal aachu
ReplyDeleteGayathri - how can i go and talk it had gone 10 years and i do no she remembers me.
ReplyDeleteioiio - thanks friend.