Mind & Time

It should express out or not, but I want to tell the state of mind was in disturbed itself. I don’t know how to start of how truly I feeling and the thoughts come. Just thinking could this place can fill the hard words of mine, we need a gateway to exist and it was to be your mates shoulder it console more. Loneliness and helpless plays very important now and then, where I couldn’t expect above my parents. I really what to be a person who was trouble free for others, I try to understand the situation and forgive my wishes, craves ect... but I was struck by a question, for how long. It’s easy to tell to leave it and see your business, but for true love these words don’t comfort, it still looks over and over. I ask myself what credential I have to look for others, just having a quality of only human being that too not normal being, what would attract them to make share and also what they gain. My dears telling its bore to be with me, I want to know what are they telling me a bore person or in how I treat those bores. In which way I should satisfy them are they expecting, without knowing what to tell, than maintaining silence to save my courtesy. I always look for the holidays of my cousins where I come to free mind just only spending with them, playing, going out chatting… it hurts to hear them feeling bore to be here.

Mind today thinks so much, and things changes times to time. I am in a situation of couldn't express my thoughts and disagree on what I feel in open mind. As I said above, the credential hesitates me here more, when trying to disclose my thoughts or an advice to any other in open. I was put in suffer more times when attempt tell something, if someone could comes in what you have the quality to comment. Whatever trouble it shoots, the creator never tries to break or throw the hard and energy he spends to create a thing. Like that my parents, they listen to whatever I throw in words if they like it or not, won’t stop or close the doors even though they don’t accept, but I can’t make the words die between us. So I like to express the same through others, but it was not even heard and instead it was tried to hide through there words.

Time really matters more in my life nowadays. How it would be little drops for a monsoon would lack to support water, like that for the little work the time takes more. Particularly the half an hour work takes an hour or more for me to finish compare to a normal person. Just not to say, I experiencing it nowadays the more the hard I face with hands. I know the activities would be reducing to slow in everything that was the reason for the over time, and many complaints follow within the time taking to spent on routine activates and it also affect the blogging time too. I go through the despondent of my impossibility for every small loss and the disturb I have to make. I blow, blow and blow, in dark no one notices. It was torched in light here. If there was none to listen, I would be in mentally disorder, thanks you all for listening to what ever I tell.

## Current song from Tamil film May matham, Minnalea nee vandhadhaenadi... how beautiful the lines are, SPB`s voice touches the feel.