Saturday, March 04, 2023

Fighting with Anxiety

Anxiety and panic attacks have been bothering me for a while now, and I'm finding it difficult to ignore the unwanted thoughts and concentrate on my regular work. I couldn't pinpoint the source of my anxiety because it was a thought or distraction related to my overall existence. I remember how clear my mind was a few weeks ago and how being alone and doing nothing didn't bother me, unlike now, when I wanted to be around someone or watch something active, like street activities or television, to distract myself from distracting thoughts. 

I almost believe it was because I slept less or frequently awoke at night. Until a few days ago, I felt sheepish as I approached midday, and a cup of coffee or tea would perk me up. Yes, I believe it's the reason—my sleepiness was disturbed—that drew me to drowsiness during the day, which may have paved the way for abnormal thoughts, distraction, and anxiety. 

I realized how I was losing sleep, and it was my attendant, who showed up early in the morning to assist my parents in putting me in the bath that was disrupting my sleep. My attendant works in an ortho clinic and has to be there by 9 a.m., so he has to put me to bathe before that, and my usual time of waking up is never less than 8 a.m., and mostly I get deep sleep nearly close to waking up; I have to force myself awake so that he is on time for his primary job. In this condition, I made a night trip while returning from Kodaikanal on February 1. It was a nightmare that took me a few days to become stable. Perhaps this was the source of my confusion.

I checked with the doctor, and he prescribed me a tablet to take at night for sleeping and relaxation (explored on google to know its purpose) for 30 days, but I haven't taken it yet because I'm feeling better now, but I decided to take it if I feel need it. I'm confident I will come out of this dilemma with much-needed sleep (to get clear without taking medicine) and concentrate on my regular activities. Let's see 


9 comments:

  1. I applaud you on not taking the calmative,Jeevan.
    They can be addictive.
    Be well.

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  2. Its just a temporary state Jeevan. Good sleep and getting busy with some activity is the best cure. Cheers

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  3. Yes, it's temporary and ull feel normal shortly. The sleeplessness can also be caused by anxiety, not just a result...

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  4. I agree with ashok. Good luck and hopefully you will solve the issue.

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  5. Wondering if you have a practice for meditation which might help with anxiety ?~

    There are a lot of people with anxiety ~ glad you didn't take the medication ~ sending you lots of distant reiki healing energy ~ namaste ~

    Wishing you good health, laughter and love in your days,
    A ShutterBug Explores,
    aka (A Creative Harbor)

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  6. ...my best to you, my friend. I hope that you will be doing better soon.

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  7. I'm sorry to hear about your problems and I hope you will be able to overcome them without medications. Sleep is very important to our health and well-being.

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  8. Hello Jeevan :=)
    I'm so sorry you have been suffering from anxiety.It is not a good state of mind, and it does affect your sleep pattern. In my life time I also have suffered from anxiety and also panic attacks.Eventually I succumbed to taking medication, and over time began to feel better. You see I could not cope with looking after my poor mother who suffered with Alzheimer condition.I took care of her in my home for five years, but after five years I was in a sorry state, so I had to see a doctor. I'm glad I made that decision because I began to sleep better, and the anxiety no longer plagued me. It's an individual decision, all I know is, the medication helped me.Try not to worry,Jeevan,
    I hope you feel better soon, with or without taking medication.
    All the best.

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  9. Things can get to be overwhelming in life. Sometimes changing the pace and schedule to one of surprise helps. Your blogger friends always enjoy hearing from you and your search for things to share can help to distract. I wish you well my friend.

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