Now a days i am not blogging properly, because of my ideat Computer.
Two days back i was reading Tamil magazine Kumutham. i read the interview of a Mother, and i really worrd & little panic, why i read that. That her son was affected by Duuchin Muscular Dystrophy, she said, that every year , a organ is getting failear for her son. and doctors said that her son will live only for 10 years. why she give this interview because, she thought, any one in this world, will tell i will treat your son or anyone will announce here is the treatment DMD. This news was very shock, for me, because i also a Muscular Dystrophy no, but i have Limb Girld MD. Most people are affected by Duuchin, very rare people are affected by Limb Girld in that way i am little lucky. You know, after reading her interview, i was totaly disturbed and i was cried that night. When i read that he will live for only 10 years, i was thinking how many year will be my life time. some months back also i read in the same book, that a DMD boy was died at his age 25. Now tell, my fear is right or wrong? I like to live many year, and i too hope, but i dont know what god has writen on my head. when i see my age guys on the road, living normaly and being happy. i also like to be a normal boy and like should enjoy this world. i can live like them only in Dreams. I like every one to show the Love (anbu) on me, when they show there love, their was a doubt standing for me it is Love or Sin (pavam parthu) for my Disable
I think the Name of the boy affected my DMD name Eshwar, you know his friends are Sachine Tendulkar, Anil Kumble and Shawalk. What i pray for god is , please take me too my childhood days i have to forget this life, should become free and enjoy with kids. When i saw the small kids, shouting, laughing and Playing with there friend, i was hating my life. i was thinked for long time, can we write this in Blog or not. Now i want a person to hear my feeling, i want to drop my worry anywhere. But where can i go and talk my emotions freely. Can i talk about this to my Parents, no, i dont like to give them my weight, already they are worried about my life, that's why i share this things with you Friends. I am very sorry to tell my feelings and hurt you all. some friends tell me that day we are all here for you, you can share your emotionals with Blogs.