Money matter

I never planned what I do then, but thought someday it may exist from mind. I didn’t wonder, because I know the bud one day will bloom into flower, but what seems is will it fragrance or not. Certainly it’s unpleasant to me, because the matter is of money. Though I am unemployed so does money seems idle to me, where it comes through is not from my hard work or brilliance. I think is there no life without money? And more than any relationship does money distributes the silence and peace? I felt am nothing in the world, what I do survive seems dump, but there is only hope and evidence my parents. And much glad even more than anyone there are friends whom truly care and love for what us. I learn what friendship means from my dad and his friends, apart from the values they support certainly foremost. I see much evidence in past what glimpse that money is nothing a matter at all when it comes to caress. I strongly believe there is no powerful than human and nature. Everything got a price in this world and even we move beyond for that to simply missing the most.

I no need search for an example, the person in my mind at every motion of our lives he exists. Where money is nothing a matter he proved and his conclusion is the proof. My uncle Shyam is the only person behind our comfort, wealth and peace. Without him we are unsettled, his ability is reasonable the world forgets sooner his depart. I see all starts don’t shine brighter, not that they aren’t special, because they are away and inability to glow, like human in understanding. Basically when we understand the need, money is nothing a matter. Money is a path to move, where we see and experience is vivid glow. I could easily think without any intention in the world, not planning tomorrow, and the only thing to misery is who carry me without values. When thinking about value, money come first sending human behind. Even a talented is dismissed by money and a feel comes does everything leads to money. Money is a source of life, but we can’t eat them right; since we rule with money and what we earn is nothing belong to us when it comes to human, the only souls remain forever. There is no intension or distraction behind this post, but something gets me flow.

I find this post interesting on kolam.

Something to express

I have the right to dream and express, don’t have I? If someone stops us from expressing, whoever gets anguish and I am not except, and indeed in the inevitable world does same thing remains forever? If the days remains and dusk invisible we don’t really have the romantic nights, so unless we see or understand something we don’t know anything and inexperience. There was a feel like the hen inside overturned basket, in air holes watching the world outside where one could only breath and visible unclearly. This is very difficult for me with a desire for the vast expansion of nature. The future is in demand for everyone for varies reason and for me it’s my parent I live up to, the only belief in the world I move. May I think why I looking within a circle of life, and thinking similarly too much, because I am taking about truth as it needs more pressure and patency to survive, where a lie can easily daub in someone’s doubt. I can clear the doubts about my stance, but I don’t know to make it possible without hurting others, especially people who are strange enough. And I don’t like anyone distress because of me, where I lose in lack of peace seeing them alike, and that the reason at every strike I move without hitting back.

Coming to the matter it was something annoys the mind. Some gives extraordinary hope to me and without thinking or knowing how many hurts experienced in past! When one lived in lonely planet, the crowded thing attracts to live and see how life works out there. At every dawn there is light, for me those are mirage, where I could not accept it truly, because of the experience that taught me more dark than light. Thus I hope to see a beautiful dawn to be special in the uncontrolled nature and I could not relate to the reason were so many experts itself couldn’t find the meaning. There is a minus side I need to acknowledge where in recent past I looked more for comfort than to fight against the disorder, but now I am in the balance instrument to handle both sides equally. I like and interest to balance both accordingly without losing either side which is both important and have least selfish mind.

Few may think or leave me far behind, but I don’t care as whatever I think and do is human nature and what I feeling is true. There are people having a circle what to do and not, alike similarly I have some what really depends on the things I think possible and must. Everything went out smoothly, until a sudden twist triggers strong wind to get down, to normal later where life as usual. Like celebration and happiness are the triggers create by heart has to come down to beat normal in conclusion. In struggle there are lots of sorrows; in fight more pains to carry on and what balancing between those are going to be pleasant? I see my life only exists through balance, in case if I lose it to advance unaware treatment I can’t even get back to remain or less. In this only state I can’t completely invisible the truth exist, I remember a story taught being child: ‘a boy sitting on a tree shouts suddenly, tiger is coming and he repeats same couple of times, where people working in fields came to rescue, deceit to his lies. And once again he shouted, but the disappointed farmers unturned where a real tiger took him away’. so what I see is there is some true even in lies. In the amount of, instead of lies - unaware, I don’t want to miss those truths behind, and what’s going through these days in my practical life.

Dirty sheep

I find those sheep roaming beside roads near Pykara waterfalls in Ooty. Seems like they survive by eating something left on roadside and what attracts is there unclean! We were discussing how much soap and shampoos need to clean them and sure they can act in washing soap ad for being unclean, thus a flashing beam could showing them unstained after using either soap. Cool!

Random tag

Brother Ghost Particle tagged me sometime ago to write 7 facts about myself... and I get to remain now!

1. I don’t remember many cell phone or landline numbers, except mine and home number. We always save the numbers in cell phone under there name, so we just press the names to call. I didn’t think actually what will happen if the cell phone is lost or struck somewhere in case of urgency to call someone out of home?

2. Ones I was dreaming at class when I was in 5th std, at the beginning stage of my disorder. I remember that sometime to think how it would be if whatever happening are to be a dream, I dreamed at my class and suddenly I awake to see I am still in my class room ;)

3. I don’t like using AC while travelling, except hefty unbearable heat. There is right reason for me to feel and wish for non-ac. I hardly get chance to go out, where I usually stable inside home, thus why do I need to keep myself within closed windows and most of the time I like going outskirt cities, so why does I want to be enclosed than breathing fresh or better air.

4. I hate buy money from anyone as a gift or presentation in showing or replacing there love and care as worth. Anything as love in few words and embrace expressed from heart is priceless compare to money. And I could not satisfy with money, without true affection within.

5. In school days I used to collect god pictures. In our class me and couple of boys have this practice and to see who collects more. Whether I hope or not, but thinking those days, it seems unconscious.

6. Ones participating in a cooking competition in school, where the preparation of fresh juice unexpectedly to pour nearly to someone’s push in desk. Unknowing to do, I filled the space with water and kept to taste by ma’ma and sure in unsavory her words amused me.

7. I don’t like listening music through headphone connected with any device. I feel it disturbs mind and radiate varies intense. Mostly I love listing through speakers (not much louder like disturbing others), where it indirectly derive into ears and it convince me in quality of sounds.

#The picture clicked one morning when this myna bird was calmly waking on the compound. After seeing it I like to drop some grains on wall and I begin to look earlier and evening for anyone’s arrival. These days I see white cranes landing and driving from the empty foreground filled with water.

Feeling motion

It was something like back to future. I hardly missing those wonderful feeling and it was such pleasant after years. This post is a continuation of last post on travel. When decide to go around Mamallapuram, it was sis idea to go to shore and she knows how much I like seashores that too visible waves near. It was years I remember standing near the sea water and running to waves chasing, but in these years it seems a merry distance. It was a quite shore we visited Tuesday and must thank rain for drenching sand to make advance our Scorpio through this off-road beside GRT Temple Bay to reach nearby waves. I feel how minds changed from the disaster tsunami in 2004 and there is little scare about the sea and rising waves, even though wish extends my scarcity, thus I could not fill those little foot distance. It could be a wonderful experience, if hesitation doesn’t stop my desire to go ahead splashing the waves on wheels. Sometimes it may think foolish, but my dream is unique and there is no requiring of everyone similarity.

The spontaneous wave’s one upon another, foaming improperly caress the feet drench to sense the pressure of tugging. I have experienced very little in past and those moments are only existing throughout to remain forever in the inevitable life. The nature has created much and seas are one best to wonder through its occult suspense. After the strange tsunami it becomes an uncontrollable evident, got changed in its nature to threaten people. Getting out of sort, we come across a colony-village within town. It was not the one in natures path – country streets, and very little available of tiles and palm leaf house. I think when world is changing into development of modern concrete structures why I feel for those old and symbols to poverty.

There was a sudden odor in the breeze took away to the awesome feel, back to our days in village. When in winter or cold evening the people use to burn fire woods to cook and make smoke around to feel comfort and warmth. Villages being wet around, after sunset there could sense a cold and snowier chillness in atmosphere, when it combines with the smoke it gives pleasant. When I felt it suddenly that day, there it mesmerizes! I share with my sister how faint it was getting after long time to this sensation. The children playing beside and around the streets, rolling tires, along sharing space the hens and goats. This town of mamallapuram remains identical to my views, except much constructions and spreading of underground sewage system, even some suburbs not. The open canals and mosquitoes have been control by, and tourism gives way too many businesses and tradition own of carving sculptures is falling least by extend. The passenger buses through this stretch have been facilitated to international standard and privatization of the ECR makes people easily available.