I don’t know how to express myself first, the squeezing grief of losing a furry
friend who cared and loved unconditionally for nearly 12 years of relationship,
and bonding that could not define in words, an attachment invisible to eyes; Maya, the magic wizard of our life has
vanished (on Nov 16) for ever. I realize fully and consciously that the departed
had happened though I still couldn’t console myself she’s no more and I feel
really sick to digest, because we hadn’t been closer with anybody like her in
the decade and she was there every day in our life and part of our journeys and
this separation brought a great void in us and I don’t know how to cope without
her further. Though I feel better now, getting back to the regular activities
which I forced myself to keep away her thoughts (temporarily) but I know it’s
not possible to block her all of sudden, as I was conscious about her every
move and tiny sounds, I get disturbed when I hear anything similar to… because
I was the only person in our family to have spent much time with her when
everyone goes out on their business, she would be on my side.
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| Maya and me at my uncle's woodhouse, during a family vacation |
As you
all know from the previous post, the treatment Maya had been undergoing
couldn’t make any improvement at all and the creatinine level has elevated up
to an extreme high where dialysis become impossible because of her age and
weakness. She had turned half her weight as she stopped eating from the
beginning of the month and the last two days to her demise was greatly troubled
her. I didn’t want to narrate further about her demise and it was really a
painful moment I noticed ever, even I have lost some dear ones in past, their
final moments were apart from my sight and this departure is something I really
want to forget to retain only the cheerful memories and brushes of furry.
Maya
is an unplanned arrival and was forced to stay into our lives when we have any
idea about adopting a dog or any other animals as pet, slowly she become
unavoidable as a trouble as well a pleasure to increase and decreases stress.
We had never been harsh with anybody, and this little furry ball/doll took it
as a favour, tagged her in us and secured a quicker place to immovable. We
couldn’t plan anything without her that let to miss a lot of opportunities and
many a time I give damn but ever thought of denying her or lack in prior and to
be certain she hadn’t been away for a day in last 7 years except that one day
she stayed in clinic for uterus removal.
It is very
hard really to swallow the truth that she shut her doors permanently and how
close we’re to depart this way… she cared and was conscious when it comes to me
and I enjoyed this care and affection what I even miss from human. From the
conscience I could tell, she trusted me lot than anyone else and was certain I would
hurt her ever, because she mostly sleep comfort by lying head under the wheels
of my wheelchair! Hope I lived to her
faith and she shares a bond that had any doubts… Maya the word I frequent has
turned whisper into ears, and I understand she’s no more but the practised tongue
would take time to change.
