Health outlet

In initial days I had no ideas what’s happening to me and I couldn’t realize or understand what’s stopping me from progress up on myself individually and I hate for not being able to cope up with others and felt that everyone leaves me behind to walk at slow pace and struggle to climb the stairs. I feel so disgrace for being distinct from other children and what others might think about me attitude refuses me to be easy always in streets and school and being unconcerned then it doesn’t mattered me more except few moments to be disgust.

I always avoid thinking back how life has been then struggling to go to school every day and mostly the thought of how to overcome the regret of people despite overviewed by students which sense me dislike and want to stop going to school and stay home to avoid fighting every day. Somehow I managed to complete certain class and thus I was later forced to a situation where I couldn’t concentration on anything, except how to manage the day without wetting trouser and falling down while reaching and leaving home.

I really don’t understand the seriousness of my problem until one day I see my parents coming out of the doctor’s clinic with tear eyes and the series of doctors been consulted couldn’t help me or my parent to console the grievance that I could depart certainly within a time. I couldn’t sense till somehow what an immense shatter it would be to break my parents hearts which I seen through their eyes and I always see their eyes to understand what they think or feel about and certainly there’s no end for their tears and the several treatment we had gone through doesn’t gave hand.

I could not say that all treatment haven’t support me a lot, but there are few treatments and equipments guided by doctors had hold me for some time and one among them had put me on calipers which supported me till a year aback. Over all the problem of Muscular Dystrophy was seen at a particular kind that was Duchenne, but only later we found that there are more than 44 types related to it and I was gladly to come under one category LGMD (limb-girdle muscular dystrophy) which is somehow a slow processor related to Duchenne which is more severe in this category.

Today I understand a lot about my problem and what kind of activates are better for good to add and bad to avoid. My problem is not very difficult to explain because its particular cause was loses of muscles strength and wherever there are muscles would lose it strength slowly towards quite loss of death and usually the lungs are main organs to disturbed often with infection and cold because of lack of resistance power, which I am suffering from lately. I know where my life leads so and I don’t worry about it right now since our life is inevitable and don’t know what will happen next moment. But I hope for a better future.

Things happens beside (pongal)

This year’s Pongal was something very simple and somehow boring until cousins came home. The thought to celebrate the festival in a traditional way never comes home easily unless I force to make it rather like the former year where rice boils to firewood under sun light and sugarcanes to hold either on the terrace, we loud Pongalo Pongal as soon the milk boils over.

Every year I wish that Pongal happens in a village and this year we went further to plan a trip to join a Pongal celebration in a village but by chance we missed the opportunity for some reason in traveling and even though I’m happy that at least we gave such concern to plan and hope next year we visit villages on Pongal festival. The festival went off usually how Chennaities celebrate it in there cooking vessels in kitchen and later watch television programs and go out the last day to conclude the festival which is known as Kaanum Pongal.

This year’s Pongal was something disastrous because of the deadliest accident happened in Kerala where more than 100 Ayappan devotes were killed due to the rollover of a jeep and following stampede in a hilly terrain. It was terrible to hear such an incident before yet to go into a festival mood and even it doesn’t much bothered here, its causes are sorrow. Unlike the obvious one above, one of my dears got into an accident and happened to fracture his wrist and even he’s not relatively close, I grown up by cutting my hairs from his hands since I remember.

What truly bother me was that within minutes he left our home finishing my hair cut he was hit by a share auto. I never saw a person like him, who never changed in his attitude and care for our entire family and closely associate with us since we began to practice. What touched me a lot was even in this condition with a fractured arm, he was thinks about my next hair cut which has a month time and there’re many barbershops in our neighbor and he employs many in his shops to serve and still he care for me is simply astonishing and such people are rare in this society.

He’s not alone a barber; he’s a finest Nadaswaram artist who performs for any rituals and temple festivals and there isn’t a function happen in our family certainly without his concert and we are not even to invite him, he understands and comes to play without an invitation and money comes next to him before us and anyone. I couldn’t say anything in front of things happen and I thought that moment what all his plans got disturbed because of his fracture and for a barber and who plays Nadaswaram the hands are very important and source of life and what he going to do having festivals at phase.

Beside these the festival days went off peaceful even there isn’t much happiness to cheers and experience to share, the last day went out on a brief ride on ECR and it was fun going along with cousins in car and chatting and teasing either. Everywhere it was congested on Kaanum pongal which is usual and to believe it was unusual to see so many people crowded the ECR till Mamallapuram. Yearly the counting just increases in crowd and never seems to reduce and it’s enchanting to see people crowded for happiness and fun! And I’m happy in sharing with you all.

Happy Harvesting

Pongal, as we all know it is a harvesting festival celebrated across India in various names and one among it is renowned as Sankranti. Though the festival is celebrated in various forms according to states culture and tradition it commonly signifies the harvest and Maker Sankranti marks the transition of the Sun into Capricorn on its celestial path.

Today the harvesting process has taken various stages in development and machineries taking over the man power in reducing his stress and to increase the productivity. Though we are advanced in technology somehow and somewhere we are still poor in productivity and many people are lacking for essential commodities to harvest and cultivate.

The harvesting is not an easy process like we proceed in Farmville and it need lot of patient and care before going for harvest in time. Thought I am not well aware about the process which could be simple and yet easy we need to feed the seeds and irrigate properly in time before they go dry completely or flooded with water to decay almost, but these days nature has changed irregularly to affect the food productivity that witness in inflation.

Not alone the process has changed; even there are no lands to increase the cultivation to feed the increasing population that taking place the lands to constructions and real-estates. Though we still have enough lands to cultivate grains and vegetables the interest among farmers have reduced to give prior to farming more than seeking for a settlement and questioning why we need to work hard when all comforts goes to citizens living in cities?

I am not intend to talk about the causes that affects in inflation or farming but thinking about the festival the things come automatically in comfort and we couldn’t think any more on this time than farming and harvesting which is the concept of this festival. Though we all have thoughts about farming and want to see it saved from the causes that affect the productivity, the non proper price fixed for seeds and grains produce the trouble among farmers and dwellers who affected by the high rise in price and money.

The Pongal is less than a day ahead and thinking that we are thanksgiving the nature and famers and livestock’s that support us to nourish and survive healthy, I feel so content and happy. The mood of festival cheering me the times thinking about Pongal, which I see it as the best among festival celebrating the harvest. On this occasion I wish that more youngsters come into the field of farming to help our poor farmers and save our future that truly depend on farming.

Here I go with my Pongal greetings that I designed the latter days and it’s always pleasure to greet with our own depict on thoughts and feeling and it’s been sometime I created greetings that I send to my cousins and I brought one of if here to greet u all a very Happy Harvesting festival of joy, peace, happiness and reliance between relationships esp. friendship...

There are two more cards in flickr here and here.

Tie up Interest

Like everybody I too have a lot of interest and passion to be but getting someone to accompany or support the cause could be little difficult and hardly impossible by quite minded and even though they are forced to be perhaps end up bored or annoyed. Even it is not right to urge anyone or those unconcern about our interest we are in need to withstand their disapproval manner if we are indent to do something indeed depend on them and only if we are certain about their despite we could go further quite comfort.

There is a tendency mind that always seeks to see is there any ways to satisfy their deeds done to us and think how certain are we about their interest. I always think two different things before going to ask someone aid that I don’t disturb their work concern and personal space, because it is very important to me more than my cause and thus because I too have my own life that I never what to be disturbed by others.

I miss many chances upon interest due to many other works of others and not intend to be free in time and more than that it’s their unconcern about my interest. Those are the times I always go back in mind thinking how chanced we are to be inadequate of substance and try to console myself that what intend to be sustain when things go out of hand. But I am well conscious about my status that helps me to resolve the issues arise in mind.

Sometimes out of knowledge and perception an awestruck happens in mind that could not console my concern but little bit to understanding could do better if we understood others. What I really wanted to say here was a personal interest could not do better if the circumstance do not understand u as a person and we always face discomfort when forcing someone to aid your interest esp. when one become physically depend on others, the situation becomes worse.

Beyond the end

Following the Big Temple visit we moved to an Amman temple, naming ‘Punnainallur Mariamman’ which seems so renowned and a older one in Thanjavur and somehow 7km from big temple. It was also a big temple, occupying a lot of space outside the temple with rows of shops sheltered by cement roof sheets. I wasn’t interested by going inside the temple and not knowing a wheel chair could enter freely, but nice to see the temple itself provides wheel chair and being non able to avoid the parent’s force I went inside. It’s been a very long time I entered an Amman temple, after a lot of time accompanying mom in scholar days, it sense something strange for me.

The temple’s outlook wasn’t charming and having a certain tower, the interiors are similar like inside a mosque with green gray tiles for floor and rows of pillars and pials to discuss. Cousin and I just went a quick round inside the temple and came out and waited for parents to complete their vision. We see many people coming here with their new and old vehicles to conduct rituals and decorate the front phase with garlands which reflects in our vehicle also. It was early night when we left the temple and went to hotel and checked with govt. guest house as the hotel bears some steps to climb, we are glad by hap to get accommodation and leaving grandparents in the hotel room since we had paid, we moved into the guest house which is on the other bank of the branch Cauvery river.

The room was very spacious to accommodate 5 of us and pretty cool due to blowing a/c and through it was comfortable, slumber was something struggled. The other day we wake up leisurely and I went out to see the guest house has a beautiful garden and quiet neat environment to attract me seemingly. There was the Geiger tree (also known as Cordial Sebestena or Scarlet Cordial) to bloom in pretty orange was down to earth from its clusters and it was so nice capturing the vivid flower hold it to hand. The garden was very green with little footbridges and very small canals painted in white and blue indicating the house belongs to PWD. Few meters away flows the Cauvery wholly caressing the banks of river which’s floating was well alike the backwaters of Kerala. Even there wasn’t heavy rain derives from the season by then, the least to overflow canals gaze me in happiness. It was the overall feeling from the tour to Thanjavur.

mom and dad in front of guest house garden

It might come to a conclusion here, but the memories would last ever and the excitement of visiting the big temple and come across the district will always remain in mind and cheer to go around another round in near future. The many places I have been visiting in 2010 and memories that are more enough still pending and with the arrival of New Year and lately events, I wanted to complete the current ones in time before going in to a leisure depict about the past experience and memories. Thank you!