All of the fingers are pointing at me
I'm well aware of this, and
I'm doing my best to avoid accusations,
However, fate has chosen me as prey.
I'm at a loss for words to describe this
How deep are the emotional wounds?
Behind my blooming smile,
The agony draws up to the roots.
It's nothing new to me.
Even though I pretend to be numb,
It still hurts, as it does most of the time,
and stymies my lighthearted demeanor.
It may well even be an illusion.
But my emotions are real,
And due to my inability,
It surges and subsides immediately.